:: My Reality ::

:: Wednesday, March 19, 2003 ::

AX

Brazilian Rosewood, Matched Split Back, Mahogony, Ebony, Mother of Pearl, Solid Spruce, Graphite Fiber, X Bracing, Neck, Dove Joint, Steel Strings, Pin Bridge, Bridge pins, Gold Plated Grovers, Head Stock, Pick Guard, Strap. Martin, Taylor, Gibson, Alverez Yari, Takamine, Ovation, Larive, Collins, Breedlove, Raintree. Fender- thin, medium, heavy, Plastic Thumbpicks, National Steel Fingerpicks, Winders, Hard Shell Case, Gig Bag, Strap. Double thumb, Travis, Arpegio, Lullibye Lick, Independent Thumb, Single Note, Treble Trash, Strum, Flubbed, Buzz, Whisper, Dead, Crosspicking, Bluegrass Picking, Slide. Fingers-I, M, R, T, Strings 1-6, Callouses, Tablature Notation, Chords, Progressions, Augmented, Dimenished, Major, Minor, 7ths, Bar, Half Steps, Sharps, Flats, Open Chord, Tune to Standard, Tunings, D-Tuning, Modal, Double Stops, Runs, Riffs, Breaks. Warped, Jumbo, Concert, Dreadnought, Action, Acoustic, Electric, Pick-ups, Amps, Mic's, WaWa Pedals, Modlers. Sonar, Cool Edit, Acid, Cake Walk, Wave Files. Taxi, Demo's, Contracts, Royalties, Gigs.

:: Tom 11:55 AM [+] ::
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A Girl I Used to Know

I had a dream about you
I saw a face and it reminded me of you
I called your name soft and low
We used to be in love, a long time ago
you'd remember me too
The things we used to do

My heart's tatooed upon my arm
It once belonged to you
but now it's torn
It's just for show
A girl I used to know
from a long time ago

I see the sunlight pouring in
I see your shadow and I know how long it's been
This is not 1969
I think I've wasted lots of time
Making up with you
It's what I need to do
To forget about you.

:: Tom 11:25 AM [+] ::
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Remember when...only a few years back. One of us would get home before the other and leave a trail of rose petals or lingere or naughty notes or whatever, leading to the bedroom where the other would lie in wait, ready to pounce, our blood hot. Or the afternoon we would declare we were going to spend the rest of the day in bed, making love, and you would not let me finish but we would take a break and eat ice cream and then start all over again. The way you teased me! Then the day we discovered toys. Some we liked, others we couldn't figure out how or what, but then you found your favorite and that was that! And we can't say we were young then because we were'nt- far from it. Have we just grown tired then? Not of each other, just tired. We're so busy with the house and the bills and the cats and dogs that we're too tired to put forth the effort?

Well, I'm not giving up. I know that when you went to Cancun last year you came back on fire for me. And the time we almost broke up and we kissed and made up, we melted together. Those times lasted for more than just a day. So I'm going to take you away from the job, the house, the kids, the pets, the bills. I'm gonna do everything in my power to rekindle the fire that consumes us both. You just wait!!! I may surprise you first with flowers. I'll draw you a warm bath with delightfully scented salts (remember the candles!). Then I'll pamper you with a slow, sensual message. We can pretend that I'm the strong Masseus at the Bellagio Spa, and you're the rich lady whose husband can't see how beautiful she is. I don't speak english, nor you Italian but who needs words.

And afterwards we'll sprawl on the bed, sheets and blankets askew, witnesses to the passion which erupts only between experienced lovers. And we'll sleep, deeply sleep, together, as only the best of friends can.

:: Tom 2:58 PM [+] ::
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Cat and Girl is so cute! I knew I'd eventually find her again. Wearing: That Burgandy mock turtle with the black stripe, Navy slacks, burgandy braces (suspenders).

Listening to: Phone messages from creditors.

You guys do get it, don't you? The Wearing and the Listening thingies? I hope so.

The Wife is contemplating changing jobs. She's been at the current one for 10 years so it would be tough for her to leave. But things are no longer fun for her there. And she has an opportunity to manage an Internal Med. clinic. I'm sure she'd make lots more money and have fewer headaches. Or at least the headaches would be new ones! Whatever she decides, I'm for it.

:: Tom 10:02 AM [+] ::
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Wearing: Black slacks, kinda' new, still very black. Redish brown and black plaid button down short sleeve, no tie, and burgandy braces (suspenders)

Listening to: CNN, the drumbeat of war.

So here's my latest scam: If I can get my hands on $1,000 I could turn it into $3,000 in about three weeks. Well, sure 'nuff, on April 9, I will have $1100 deposited into my account. Problem is the account is $663 overdrawn from writing bad checks at the convenience store where I do my gambling. The convenience store owner could have me arrested but since he's running an illegal gambling operation, he can't say a word! So my only hope is to do a little gambling and try to erase the $663 negative. Seed money for this venture is $150 from my library job. However, I'm on the fence as to whether to gamble $50 at the convenience store, saving the $100 to live off of for 10 days.Or take the entire $150 and ride up to Cherokee which would be a lot more fun. But that's not much money and my luck at Cherokee hasn't been too good as of late. Oh well, there's your insight into the hopelessly hooked mind of the petty gambler. But what if I got the $3K...What would I do with it? Mainly pay off gambling debts. Of course if I did that, I wouldn't have an excuse to gamble any more. That would be interesting.

I miss the bloody Taylor. Me thinks I made a big mistake. Yep I've made plenty, most of which I have forgiven myself for but this time I think I screwed up more than just in the usual "I fucked up" kind'a way. I mean I think I really screwd up this time. This will cost me a little bit of my soul to straighten out. More tomorrow, when I come to grips with the gravity of what I've done.

:: Tom 11:14 AM [+] ::
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