Finally got my prescription for Vioxx to help my shoulders. I have a 'dry socket' on my left shoulder and close to the same on my right...very painful. The Vioxx helps. Vioxx also helps my shattered tooth! I have an appointment for March 3 to fix that one, but as long as I take the meds, it's ok.
We're all going to Florida! Deb and I, Mike and Sabrina, and Nicole and Henry! Some time in April we're all heading down to Fort Walton Beach for a long weekend in a big Condo on the beach! It sleeps 10 and is designer decorated. It belongs to Deb's boss and since Deb has done such a good job on their move to a new office, she is being treated to a weekend at the Condo.
I'm trying to decide whether to take an $800 bonus or a salary raise for my "Excellent" rating on my evaluation. I'm going to get a raise anyway in May. I could use the bonus to get everything out of pawn and have money left over. I wouldn't get the cash till April. Deb is against it, wants me to take the raise. But she doesn't really understand the dynamics. I get one of these every year which guarantees a raise every year. Otherwise I would get a raise every two years. The last time we talked about this we had a big fight. Calmer heads need to prevail.
:: Tom 11:55 AM [+] ::
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:: Wednesday, February 04, 2004 ::
I feel like one of Sheryl Crow's songs..."Gonna' fell like hell tonight." Waking up groggy, headachy, out of sorts. My mouth hurts from eruptions caused by eating a mango which I'm allergic to but eat anyway because they are so good. Carpel tunnel makes both hands zing with numbing pins and needles. White noise fills my ears, my vision (double) continues to have problems, shoulders and neck creak from bursitus. I feel like hell this morning!
If you're the slightest interested in acoustic guitars, don't forget to visit my brother blog, Guitar Talk.
We have a new guy working at the Library with me on Mondays and Wednesdays. We get along famously, have similar interests, same age.
The last time I was this bored with my life, I did something really foolish. I quit a good steady job and sold used cars. That lasted three months and everyday the stress gave me diarrhea. I kind of liked the job but not running to the toilet ever half hour!
The time before that, when I was bored, I invented a parallel reality with it's own language. I began living in that reality and ended up losing the other one. That was very disturbing. It has taken me 30 years to recover.
This time I realize I have everything I could ever want. Seriously, I have a great wife, the best job in the world, two great kids, I'm emotionally stable for the first time in eight years...and yet I feel that old feeling of boredom creeping up on me. I've been living under such great stress for so many years that if I don't have some sort of crisis going on in my life, I have the feeling that something is wrong. So I go and cause some sort of catastrophy driving a wedge between me and myself, causing great pain to me, my family and my friends. Or worse.
Not this time. Finally learned that lesson. Voices are congratulating me, welcoming me to the land of the living. I have literally returned from hell. A hell of my own making. I have lied, stolen, filled my heart with greed, and as a result I have writhed in pain like a snake stuck in the belly. But this is where I get off the bus. I am taking a permanent vacation from the Vision Quest. I'm about as enlightened as I'm gonna' get. You'll find me 'neath yonder tree softly playing guitar and singing songs...about you.
