Went to see my shrink yesterday, got into a discussion concerning the Self, God, and the Mongrel Demon. It started with my discription of the splitting of the self: This splinter self (aka Mongrel Demon, aka Anti-Tom) coalesed into itself in the same manner as the planets of the
Now, the object has been to forgive the monster for causing the Big Bang. However, it is constantly burping little after shocks causing serious disruptions as I move beyond the psychotic state. I have seen solar system. This, as a result of the exposion of emotion which blew me and my life apart in 1971. I have seen
the hideous face of this diseased self and tried to embrase it, but with little success.
:: Tom 10:12 AM [+] ::
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Two 4-day weekends in two weeks, damn nice! Hard to get back into the groove but my evaluation is coming up so I've got to get to work.
I called Elaine yesterday(first wife, love of my life), first time I have heard her voice in 32 years! Actually she sounded different (ya' think?!), a more mature voice, less spontaneous, measured with her words. After the initial ackwardness we had a good conversation, mostly about kids and how lucky we were to have ours turn out so well. She also said that I should not give up on my music, that she will continue to use her Nashville/New York/Hollywood contacts to push my CD. If the occasion presents itself, I would call her again. But I won't make a habit of it.
All I got for Christmas was a new red sweater, black dress shoes. My birthday is next Monday (Jan 12). My sister sent me a check which I already spent.
So, you wonder what I'm wearing?! Here goes: Lt. blue mock turtle cotton sweater, Khaki cotton trousers, hiking boots. Listening to: Gary Nueman, "Cars."
I'm having a great on-line conversation with my friend Mike Romanyszyn in San Antonio. He's sending me music software, recordings. I think I'm sort of lighting a fire under him to resume doing his music. I'll have my recording system set up in a few weeks. Can't wait to install the drum machine he sent me.
:: Tom 9:18 AM [+] ::
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